rough times still lay ahead for me.
i really just want to find that person that's makes me want to stop looking again.
I'm not over the feelings that I had for Paul. i hadn't felt that way in so long; who knows if that relationship would have lasted.... but it would have been nice to find out.
Shaun seems to think that I don't know who I am, and while I almost agree, it's more that I don't want to open myself up again, let my guard down, so i have these relationships that last for a couple months and they are fun but the second work needs to be put in I bounce.
i can't be close to someone yet.
