Tuesday, July 31, 2012

turning seas

rough times still lay ahead for me.

i really just want to find that person that's makes me want to stop looking again.

I'm not over the feelings that I had for Paul. i hadn't felt that way in so long; who knows if that relationship would have lasted.... but it would have been nice to find out.

Shaun seems to think that I don't know who I am, and while I almost agree, it's more that I don't want to open myself up again, let my guard down, so i have these relationships that last for a couple months and they are fun but the second work needs to be put in I bounce.

i can't be close to someone yet.

Monday, July 23, 2012

Making decisions again

so its about fucking time that I take control of my life again. its been 5 months, long enough eh?

I went to belize and re-evaluated... aka... drank and smoked a bunch

I came back and decided it was time to go back to school and move back to Sacto. so i did and I am. august I move and start school to go back for my GIS certificate. then in a year I should be able to get a job and in dreamland I would move to Austin with a job.


heres hoping.

ps, I love when guys think you are going to break up with them how they step up their game. Hilarious.