fun

im pretty sure fun could slap me in the face and I still wouldn't have a good time.

austin

leaving today, back to reality.

but I think I've had enough over the past couple days then I'll need for a while.

im not sure if I really liked this guy, or if I was just that comfortable around him that it made me think there was something there.

im almost positive that I won't be coming back to austin with that version of reality clouding my vision.

either way, im feeling pretty heart broken right now.

think

i cant think straight, this is the longest ive gone without sex

i need it, im getting self conscience, am I still sexy? am I still good in bed? will it hurt like it did before? will I make too much noise? will i say the wrong name? is he going to think that im a dead fish in bed? do I smell/taste ok? am i doing this right?

and in three minutes it'll be over... was it worth the wait?

hopefully round 2 wont be too far away.