8 o clock

and im going to bed. oh  yes. =)

if only I wasn't going to bed alone

yup... thinking about Paul.
...

barely hanging on by a thread

remembering

i know why i have such feelings for brendan. he was the first person after Chad that I wanted to have sex with and could.

the mtv true life is bringing back all of the feelings that i had, how they are feeling. it's making me cry

opening up

so, i started using plenty of fish.

that was interesting. uhhh

but what I have realized is that I'm not ready to open up or be emotionally available for anyone.

so i am in the process of canceling that. uhhh

and I've started running more and am trying to work more yoga into my life.

so we'll see how this goes